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I Don’t Care

The general rule for me when writing a post on this website is to express my thoughts without any restriction. But of course I want to be sensitive in constructing my entries as much as possible for I may offend someone.

I will disregard being sensitive in this post so if you think it’s something that may affect you in a negative way, please make a decision whether to continue reading or not.

Unang una, Aiman I think may boyfriend kana, or may mahal kanang bago. Whether nagkatuluyan kayo ng pinsan mo or may special someone ka na hindi pa open sa public, na hindi ko nababalitaan.

Well to be honest wala naman akong karapatan para makasagap ng balita about you. Pero I still check on you every time. Tuwing may stories ka sa messenger, I watch it. I constantly check all your FB profiles para naman maka get in touch sayo kahit papaano since di na tayo nag uusap.

Pasintabi kung may bago kana ngayon, pero I still fucking love you and I never stopped loving you. Never comes a day na hindi ka dumaan sa isip ko. Since nung huli nating kita ni Ate nadz, I always think about kailan uli kita makikita. Nakakainis na bigla ka nalang umuwi nun pagbalik ko ng hotel room wala kana daw. Gusto kita ihatid that time, actually mas gusto ko na may sarili tayong room doon.

Tuwing gabi, for months, napapanaginipan kita. Yung personality mo dun, yung kung pano ka nung 2014.  Normally, I forget about the dreams I had some time after I wake up. Pero alam mo doon sa panaginip ko, nakakarating tayo sa unfamiliar places at pareho tayo nag eexplore. Sa isang panaginip ko, sumakay tayo ng bus, then nagulat tayo kasi di natin marecognize yung lugar. As usual, nakita ko yung facial expression mo kapag gulat at nag aalala ka. May parang chinese establishment sa harap natin, tapos umakyat tayo dahil may hagdan sa may eskinita. Then pagdating natin sa taas, nakasarado yung pinto, we tried to open it, then you stopped, you looked at me, at nagba bye ka then slowly you faded away. Yun pala nagigising na ako.

In one of my dreams, naging assistant mo ako sa wicca like how you used to plan on me.

Every time na nasa panaginip kita, ikaw parin yung girlfriend ko, that’s why my heart breaks every time I wake up. Kasi sa realidad, we are no more than strangers na.

Alam mo yung picture sa taas nitong post nato na nakadaplis yung kamay ko sa boobs mo, ayaw ko ipa post sayo to eh kasi baka may masabing di maganda satin ang mga makakita. But now it is the featured image because in this post, I simply don’t care what about others think. I will speak my mind, the truth and nothing but the truth no matter how other people take it.

Nabawasan na yung instances na napapanaginipan kita. But I still think about you everyday.

Pwede naman kita mahalin, kahit hindi moko mahal.

Pwede naman kita mahalin, kahit di tayo nagkikita.

Pwede naman kita mahalin, kahit di tayo nag uusap.

Pwede naman kita mahalin, kahit may bago kanang mahal.

Pwede naman kita mahalin, nang hindi ako nakakagulo.

Pwede naman kita mahalin, kahit i-contain ko lang sa sarili ko.

Pwede naman kita mahalin, kahit masasaktan lang ako.

Pwede naman kita mahalin, kahit maging total stranger ako para sayo.

Pwede naman kita mahalin, kahit memories na lang ang pinaghahawakan ko

At kung hindi man pwede, I DON’T CARE

MAHAL KITA, AIMAN

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